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I'll tattoo your name upon my skin, carve it out and never cry again.

Harley Quinn found her Joker.

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Well, I am not sure what to say... I was born in Montreal, in a castle, on a hill [Royal Victoria Hospital].

That seemed to set the pace for my life I suppose. Though I lived 11 of my first years on the south shore [suburbs]of Montreal. Due to my father moving up in the company he worked for - he was transfered to a brand new division in Dallas Ft. Worth. We made the major move, to be greeted with severe culture shock.

I ended taking the most of the load. I was then the Canadian kid in the classroom that was presumed slow because of her accent. It was a painful time in my life, having no friends... but it made me a much stronger person. Though, sadly, my craving for attention and adoration did not stop until my junior year in high school. I had finally had enough with people and their stereotypes.

By senior year, I was one of the most popular people in the "outcast" crowd.

Somehow I graduated High school, though I think I honestly only did a months hard work in those four years.

On my graduation day, my "brother" [non-blood, but felt quite like]drowned as I was walking the stage at 4:35. I wondered why he was not there...
I was 18.

It seeme momentum in my life stopped for quite a few years. I found signifigant others to fill that void for what seems only a few moments at a time.

I then joined Los Bastardos, a Rocky Horror Picture Show cast. I called them "The friends of the friendless" [Based off an I Love Lucy Episode]

I spent 6 and a half years with those wonderful people. All those years became a blur of happiness, and new self awareness. Unlike many rocky groups, they lifted my spirits, and helped rebuild my self confidence.

So much to the point I began Pinup Modeling.

Granted, I did not keep up with it, but found a new passion through it. A few times I would talk to my Photographer, and we would discuss his work.

Then the photographer within me re- awoke [my father was always a photography buff], and I have not stopped taking pictures since.

I now use a Nikon D40X, and am in love with it.

I have always been on the artistic side of the brain, so I try to write, read, paint, and think as artistically as possible. I enjoy acting, singing, and dancing. Basically anything that is about self- expression.

My current picture in my mind of true Bohemia, is my favorite singer. Amanda Palmer.

I do not idolize her, but I do find her very inspiring. Each time she does something, it makes me think. I love to think.

She is the lead singer of the Dresden Dolls, and a song from their first CD summs me up the best:

"you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i could act my age
but i dont think that youd believe me
it's just the way the operation made me

and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose

i am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
i might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl anachronism

and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors
cause they've seen it all before
they'll say just
she'll learn
the attention just encourages her

and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that i'm sorry that i asked
though you did everything you could
(like any decent person would)
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believing you're immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off

and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...

i don't necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident

That is basically me in a nutshell...

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